As I stood there, looking into the very souls of the characters I've known intimately over the past 14 months, I felt the sadness sweep over me... wanting to break down and weep, yet not wanting to because it's not what I should be doing in the moment... knowing just how much I will miss this place, and even more so, how much I will miss the people that fill it....

Realized...

And I've just realized that I've lost touch with the art... I've become somewhat of a machine in my realm, just banging away at it.... I'm glad I'll be able to return to somewhere and have the freedom to do it my way, let the creativity flow out again, and hopefully have something that's not necessarily technically perfect, but beautiful all the same.

Case of the mondays

And it suddenly hits me, just how near the end is... everything has been so easy to fight back until today, and all of a sudden, everything fell out from underneath me, and I felt the sadness begin to settle in

Photobooth 3/8/06

Yeah, I missed yesterday... but got a decent one tonight... might have to double up sometime to get that missing image in!

Photobooth 3/6/06

Life's a blur... gotta slow it down sometimes...

Photobooth 3/5/06

My photo for today... no too much to say about it... Congratulations to Crash on the Best Picture award tonight!

Photobooth 3/4/06

As you can see, it's been a bit of a long day... lots of fun and stuff... but a long one!

Photobooth 3/3/06

Today's photo, with a bit of anguish/exhaustion mixed in...

Kind of a funny photo, nearing a photographic caricature...

Just a thought...

Loving this fire... so sweet! Got this one from the wikipedia... just doing a little research for the weeks ahead...

AND!!

I think my creativity is starting to come back... Woohoo!!

Photobooth 3/1/06

My photobooth photo for today...

Let the spring cleaning begin

I'm actually considering this, for the first time... I'm thinking about selling my old machine to somebody else... I've never done this, and it used to be that I would never even consider it an option.

There are a few things about this that I like... first... when I move in a few weeks, it would give me a good bit more space to work with in my car, and one less thing to worry about in the move. It would let me gain nearly half of my new machine's cost back, which is always nice.

I just feel like I'd be cheating my machine out, ditching it to move forward... sure I know they really don't have feelings, but I do still feel like there is a bond between the machine and the user that you don't really want to break. I've had this machine for 3 1/2 years, so in my heart, there really is some piece of me that doesn't want to part with it. I would likely only consider selling it to somebody here, where I can convince myself it would be loved a bit more properly than somebody on eBay.

This may all sound crazy, but that's what's up with my brain right now....